that i don’t know
and it’s this not knowing
that breaks me
there are a lot of times
that i hurt
but every time
it happens quietly
sinking into the carpet
wishing it would swallow me whole
absorb my mind and body
i don’t need it after all
i’ve decided
to give up knowing
maybe this is how
it’s meant to be
i’ve decided
to give up searching
for answers that always
seem to escape me