they say that it is simply dormant
anxiety crouching in wait for a moment
when the girl is not collapsing
but instead, she is standing
she breathes deeply and reads the skyline
that's the point where the spider decides
it's time to spin a web of uncertainty
with a growing sense of urgency
surrounding both ankles in sticky trip wire
creeping up legs and even higher
it is an invisible suffocation
that gives no warning or explanation
the facade once again maintained
it never is easy to explain
it isn’t easy to make things make sense
when i have a preference for avoidance
i trip and stumble over words
the noises i make go unheard
an embarrassment of over dramatic
the arrival of regret is always quick
i must excuse myself from the room
mutter agreements to meet again soon
my incoherence spills over the sides
and the girl is mortified
with no care for the inopportune season
i'm going to go for a walk for no reason
and if you bump into me on the way
if you are listening to what i say
please pretend to not notice my disguise
and believe my lethargic lies
where I have not come up with an explanation
to justify my wandering confusions
i tell myself that I am wasting time
running away from the inside of my mind
it's an itchy neck and sweaty thighs
euthanized heartbeats before opened eyes
anxiety crouching in wait for a moment
when the girl is not collapsing
but instead, she is standing
she breathes deeply and reads the skyline
that's the point where the spider decides
it's time to spin a web of uncertainty
with a growing sense of urgency
surrounding both ankles in sticky trip wire
creeping up legs and even higher
it is an invisible suffocation
that gives no warning or explanation
the facade once again maintained
it never is easy to explain
it isn’t easy to make things make sense
when i have a preference for avoidance
i trip and stumble over words
the noises i make go unheard
an embarrassment of over dramatic
the arrival of regret is always quick
i must excuse myself from the room
mutter agreements to meet again soon
my incoherence spills over the sides
and the girl is mortified
with no care for the inopportune season
i'm going to go for a walk for no reason
and if you bump into me on the way
if you are listening to what i say
please pretend to not notice my disguise
and believe my lethargic lies
where I have not come up with an explanation
to justify my wandering confusions
i tell myself that I am wasting time
running away from the inside of my mind
it's an itchy neck and sweaty thighs
euthanized heartbeats before opened eyes