Betrayed by a desperate desire to be loved
the rise of blood is far too loud
an optimistic nudge of lips
a bumping nose – it is so reassuring
before one day you say Goodbye
nothing is forever
even these seemingly endless cups of tea
are soon drained and the sun sets
I just want you beside me
I have memorised the muscles of your back
and I can still taste the bones of your shoulder
at 11:45 when I am supposed to be working
you have made space for yourself
all through my life – I find you
in my childhood memories, as if -
we have always been together, from the start
and it is this desperation that is a betrayal
because no one ever said that it would be like this
that you would be so perfect
that we would be so easy
like a lazy Saturday morning
we sink into each other
and I do not think breathing is possible
without your smile illuminating this world
and I fear that if you shall ever leave it
the darkness shall drain through the cracks
leaving me blinded and marooned
with only the too loud rush of blood
which is why
our bumping noses is such a profound thing
I can exhale with you beside me
let us carry each other’s worries
optimistically nudged together
until the world turns blurry
the rise of blood is far too loud
an optimistic nudge of lips
a bumping nose – it is so reassuring
before one day you say Goodbye
nothing is forever
even these seemingly endless cups of tea
are soon drained and the sun sets
I just want you beside me
I have memorised the muscles of your back
and I can still taste the bones of your shoulder
at 11:45 when I am supposed to be working
you have made space for yourself
all through my life – I find you
in my childhood memories, as if -
we have always been together, from the start
and it is this desperation that is a betrayal
because no one ever said that it would be like this
that you would be so perfect
that we would be so easy
like a lazy Saturday morning
we sink into each other
and I do not think breathing is possible
without your smile illuminating this world
and I fear that if you shall ever leave it
the darkness shall drain through the cracks
leaving me blinded and marooned
with only the too loud rush of blood
which is why
our bumping noses is such a profound thing
I can exhale with you beside me
let us carry each other’s worries
optimistically nudged together
until the world turns blurry